the gig last night was a bust. it happens.
this venue is an enigma to me...
i've done 2 specific gigs there that are on my list of best gigs ever for:
some financial returns, group participation, and atmospheric electricity...
the other couple of times were 'glorified rehearsals'
in all honesty, i don't like the inconsistency...and in all honesty it makes me
ponder the following:
*side note - yes, if i keep doing this i will continue to give it 100% when i play but...
-i like to entertain sure, but at heart i am a song-leader. i believe in this thing called 'group singing.' i believe in that atmosphere of lifting our hearts and voices to sing protest songs, silly songs, peace songs, folk songs, and spirituals. I know from experience that it helps with solidarity, freedom from heaviness, and a healthy escape from life to get 're-calibrated.'
-question to self: to whom do i go? the children, the congregation (i can't do the contemporary church music thing anymore...not right now), just the web?, just the recording studio?
it's Sunday, 2nd cup of coffee, and this is my honest 'folkish' pondering. send your well-wishes my way :)