'i'm supposed to love people?...i may have signed up for the wrong club.'
when a person in the 12 step program was struggling with forgiving somebody that had really hurt them, their sponsor tenderly said, 'just pray for the son of a bitch.'
-the spirituality of imperfection (paraphrased)
'But i tell you: Love your enenmies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and unrighteous.'
i guess i'm learning that it's more beneficial to not be dishonest when somebody annoys me or does me wrong. to not be dishonest, but to not stop praying either. i can be so forgetful in the area of trying to exchange good for evil. one of my other shortcomings is this crazy ability to analyze and usually get a pretty good grasp on what a person's 'issues' are. part of it could come from my past training and experience in working with people, but here's the deal. it's not my friggin' job! i can do better to take care of my own mess and work on me....there's plenty to do there. plus, i get to reap the serenity of keeping close to my higher power and letting him work with me...or on me rather :) this all stems from an incident at work....the proverbial 'thorn in the side' co-worker who just seems to 'stay the same' with their tactics and weasling. Oh well, God bless them, give them a good life, and touch them more and more with your Love and all that that implies...and in it all, 'thy kingdom come thy will be done.' hey, maybe now i'm free to let him 'do' as he desires...maybe now i'm free to fry bigger fish? or something?